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What Will I Be Reading In June? | Daisy’s TBR

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*All items marked with a (*) were gifted to me in exchange for my honest thoughts. Any opinions given are entirely my own.

With June making an appearance next Saturday, I reckon it’s the perfect time to chat about what I’m planning on reading next month. There were so many choices at my local library and I’m actually really pleased with my little selection of YA books!

Orphan Monster Spy by Matt Killeen

I’ve never come across a book quite like this! I’ve read spy books like Alex Rider, books set during the Holocaust and books set in boarding schools, but not all in one book. It’s such an interesting plot and reminds me a little of Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy! Thrillers aren’t my usual genre but I genuinely excited to read this!

The Butterfly Circus by Francesca Armour-Chelu*

This stunningly beautiful book was actually gifted to me so big thanks to Francesca and Walker Books! I adore stories where you have mystery fused with adventure! You get to follow sisters Tansy and Belle who are stars of a circus finale! After an accident and one sister vanishing, you get to join in the search for the missing sister and the journey along the way! I’ve actually started reading this already (and adoring!!) but this comes out on June 6th so hinthint! Haha!

They Both Die At The End by Adam Silvera

Ever since I read the collab ‘What If It’s Us‘ with Adam Silvera and Becky Albertalli, I’ve fallen for Adam’s writing! I’ve always had a bit of a morbid sense of humour (blame my mum!) and, when I read the plot of the two main characters being told they only have a day to live, my interest was piqued! The characters Mateo and Rufus are total strangers but they manage to hook up through an app designed for the last day and try to cram a lifetime into a day! I’m ready for my heart to be shattered! *sob*

Superman: Dawnbreaker by Matt De La Peña

What with Marvel taking over the cinema, DC has been slowly been planning their domination! They’ve had some amazing films out recently such as Suicide Squad, Aquaman and Birds of Prey (coming next year). Not only have they had the big screen but they’ve also been teaming up with incredible authors writing stories of well-known heroes: Wonderwoman: Warbringer, Catwoman: Soulstealer and Batman: Nightwalker! I’ve watched so many things about Superman but I think this book shows his early days in a completely different light! My inner DC nerd needs to do some reading of baby Boy Of Steel!

Doctor Who: Combat Magicks by Steve Cole

I’m missing the Doctor, Yas, Ryan and Graham! I’ve been chomping at the bit ever since the New Year special and, with the new pictures popping up on the Doctor Who Twitter, I needed to find something to do! I’ve not actually picked up any of the Doctor Who books until now since I’m more of a visual person but I saw Jodie and this book somehow ended up in my flat! If you want to hear one of the cast reading this, Mandip Gill (Yasmin) is narrating the audiobook!

Dancing The Charleston by Jacqueline Wilson

You can’t do any reading without a Jacqueline Wilson book in your list! I’ve got a weird reason for wanting to read this book (other than being a big fan of Jacqueline!). I used to do extra work a few years ago and did some in a BBC TV show called The Village! It was being filmed around Matlock and around Derbyshire so of course I wanted to get involved! Cue driving through the Peak District at 4am and getting dirtied up for life as a factory worker! You did get treated like cattle but I was happy! This wasn’t acting work so wouldn’t end up on my CV but it was giving me a chance to learn how filming works and set etiquette! Long story short, it was set in the 1920s and we actually had to learn some steps of the Charleston for a scene! It was so much fun and this book looks just as fun!

What books are you going to reading next month?

Books Fandom

Review | The Princess And The Fangirl by Ashley Poston

Fangirl

With MCM Comic Con happening in London next weekend and all kinds of fangirl and fanboy cosplaying down there (including me!), I figured now would be the perfect time to review Ashley Poston’s nerdy novel ‘The Princess and the Fangirl‘. It’s like this book was written for me! If I could attend every convention out there, I would but unfortunately money doesn’t grow on this fangirl’s tree!

Imagine that you’re going to a convention knowing that some of your favourite stars are going to be there and that you’ve been waiting for that day to come for so long.

If you can imagine that, then you are basically Imogen Lovelace!

Imogen has been going to ExcelsiCon with her family year after year selling merchandise, knowing every stall that’s around and practically calling it her second home. This year is a little different as she’s grieving from the loss of her favourite character Princess Amara and refusing to let her die. Her actress Jessica Stone is attending this year and Imogen is determined to make her understand why she can’t stay dead!

One problem though?

Imogen looks just like Jessica!

Just like Geekerella was the retelling of Cinderella, The Princess and The Fangirl retells the story of ‘The Prince and The Pauper’. I really need to watch the Disney version of that story because nothing like a little Disney magic to make your weekend. I really connected with Imogen since I’ve attended conventions in the past and there is something special about connecting with friends from across the country!

World Book Day

I started off not liking Jessica seeing as she was super snobby and the type of celeb that only goes to conventions to get a pay cheque at the end of it. Thankfully you start to understand why she does what she does and begins to redeem herself in the eyes of the people around her. There is the most perfect LGBTQ+ ship that happens and, by the end, I was absolute mush! Ashley didn’t make it easy for her readers! Oh and Imogen’s brother Milo…I honestly want to adopt him to be my sibling too because he’s adorable and protective and gay! Love it!

Overall, I’m giving this book a strong 4.5 out of 5 stars! It had everything thrown in there! I only knocked a half point off because I wish it was longer! I had too many feels at the end and wanted to know what happened next!

Have you guys ever attended a convention? What was your best moment? If not, would you ever go to one?

Mental Health

Thank You BBC Three For Listening | Mental Health Awareness Week 2019

BBC Three

One channel that I have adored both on TV and now online has to be BBC Three. Like Channel 4, they are not afraid to look at the documentaries that target real life issues such as LGBTQ+ and mental health.

Carrying on with my mental health posts for this week, I’m going to look at some of the programmes/videos that have made me feel as if I’m not so abnormal. I’m going to put a trigger warning here because quite a lot of these may trigger you so don’t be afraid to click away or just read what I’ve written instead of watching.

Overshadowed

BBC Three

Everyone knows how popular Youtube is these days with famous vloggers documenting beauty routines, what is new this month and a day in their life. That is why I loved watching this short but incredible series following a vlogger called Imogene who starts by vlogging her life and slowly starts noticing something so much more: anorexia. You are able to see it taking hold on her and hear all thoughts about herself and those around her. You wish you could help her but all you can do is watch.

This is actually based off a play by Eva O’Connor so, if you love theatre/reading play texts, check it out!

George Shelley: Learning To Grieve

I’ll be honest with you: I never listened to Union J. I knew who they were and sometimes caught their songs on the radio but they never really interested me. It wasn’t until I watched George Shelley on I’m A Celeb that I noticed him and heard the story of his mental health. Hearing about the death of his sister is awful and grief is something I’ve struggled with a lot in terms of losing my parents. There is something called survivor’s guilt that some people have to battle with where you feel intensely guilty for being alive when the person you lost has died. It feels like your life loses all meaning for a while and watching this documentary a year after losing my Mum really helped.

Things Not To Say

This little series on Youtube by BBC Three was the first mental health thing I watched by them! I adore all of these videos for being brutally honest, really funny and beyond relatable especially when the people talking suffer/are going through the same thing as you. You even get to see my friend and fellow blogger, Sarah, in one of these about wheelchair users! They look at so many subjects that other channels wouldn’t touch and one day, I will be on one of these chatting about something…BBC Three, call me! (Haha).

I’m gutted that BBC Three is no longer a TV channel because it was so different to the standard BBC that we know and it reached more eyes than it seems to online. That said, I just wanted to say thank you to the team and to the people who help create these programmes based on mental health of all different kinds and for making others aware of how much it can affect a person.

What programmes/videos have you watched on BBC Three?

Fandom

Living As A Fibromyalgia Sufferer | National Fibromyalgia Awareness Day

Guess what day it is today? It’s National Fibromyalgia Awareness Day and, my gosh, does this condition need to be given more awareness. I’ve officially been diagnosed with this for around 2 years now and it’s been a very tricky journey. From hearing that the pain I’d been suffering was because of a condition to being one of 2 million people in the UK who suffer from Fibromyalgia .

Life with it is far from easy!

If you’ve never heard of Fibromyalgia before, imagine having been to the gym for hours that causes you body to be sore paired along the flu and times though by 100! That is what it’s like living with this. Constant pain through every inch of your body every single minute of every single day. Some days you can ignore the pain and just carry on with normal things but then there are other days where it’s the worst pain imaginable.

No fun!

With it being the specific awareness day, I thought I’d give you a little taster of what it’s like to go through it.

What you don’t know is that Fibro isn’t just pain. It’s so much more than that and that is what makes it an awful condition to have. You get extreme tiredness, irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), being really sensitive to pain such as stubbing your toe and the pain lasting way longer than it’s meant to. Headaches, depression (pretty obvious if you’re in pain all the time) and sometimes restless leg syndrome.

Everyone suffers differently and that’s why GPs seem to constantly struggle to understand Fibromyaglia has an actual physical condition. You go through blood tests that show nothing so you constantly have to battle.

The most frustrating thing I’ve personally had to go through is convincing my GP that the pain isn’t all in my head. It seems that as soon as they hear you have mental health they don’t particularly take you seriously. I actually wish that my Fibro was all to do with my depression because talking it away would be amazing but unfortunately that isn’t how it works.

I’m on a bunch of medication to handle all the symptoms:

  • Gabapentin (usually used for nerve pain and it’s meant to help)
  • Baclofen (this is a musle relaxant because boy, do these muscles get way tense when the pain hits)
  • Lansoprazole (to lower all that nasty stomach acid that IBS gives me)
  • Sertraline (for depression)
  • Naproxen (deals with any inflammation so a bit stronger than Ibuprofen)

I swear I’m rattling with all these! To be honest, I wish I didn’t have to take them because they all come with different side effects and I do my best to try and exercise through walking to ease, but nope.

Have you ever heard the old saying that ‘pain is always worse at night’? Well, it’s true!

The daytime gives me plenty of distractions from what I’m feeling but as soon as the night comes, everything seems to hit. On my worst days, I am literally sobbing and almost writhing because I can’t get away from the pain. I do my best to try and relax my body as much as I can. I get into my comfiest PJs, light some of my favourite Yankee Candles (they smell so good!), have a bath and try to do anything to ignore.

Sometimes these work, sometimes they do nothing. It’s just one of those things.

In my eyes, Fibromyalgia is a disablity and, by making others aware of the difficulties sufferers face every day, I hope that the medical profession and others become aware of that. Right now there is no cure to it other than just handling the symptoms but I refuse to let it define me so here I am.

If you suffer with it, we’re in this together! Big love to the lovely ladies in my Fibro WhatsApp group!

Do you suffer from Fibromyalgia? If not, what are your thoughts about it?

 

Mental Health

Why Mental Health Needs To Be Understood In Hospitals

If someone told me that I would start May being rushed into hospital and having emergency surgery, I probably would have snickered or rolled my eyes in disbelief. Well, that happened! I always suffer with a bunch of pains due to Fibromyaligia and IBS but the pain I got that Sunday was horrendous!

‘d tried taking my usual medication for IBS but nothing seemed to help it. I’d been to my out-of-hours GP with pain in my legs, stomach and back and was given an anti-inflammatory. Called 111 and they actually called for an ambulance.

Hospitals

I have the biggest respect for paramedics seeing as they dedicate every day to helping people who are sick or injured. However, one of the paramedics who I saw actually scolded me. I was finding it hard to explain everything (was in pain and a lot was happening) and all she could keep saying was “why didn’t you taking your pain meds if you were in pain?” over and over. Remember that this was at 2am, I was already in tears and this person had me feel ashamed for no reason.

You would think the fact that I’d already given her information about what I had taken 3 hours before and that I had anxiety and Aspergers, she would be a little more understanding. Nope. Not one question if I was okay. Just a sigh.

Even now it upsets me.

Thankfully her partner was a lot nicer and brought me a wheelchair when the other was trying to get me to walk into A&E. Apparently her cousin has a form of Autism so she kind of knew how to help.

Fast forward to the night before my surgery.

Cue absolute anxiety attack!

The tears, the sobs, the wanting to go home. The works.

I’m usually alright with hospitals since I was pretty much brought up near them with my parents being in the NHS, but it’s like someone switched me to a scared kid. I reckon anyone, regardless of whether they had mental health, would be scared of the idea of going under.

The nurses knew I was having a battle in my head, even the other ladies in my bay knew and they were suffering worse than me! One of the reasons my anxiety was up was that no-one was telling me at the time whether I was having surgery or not.

None of the doctors came to see me, I asked the nurses if they had an idea so they went to go ask and never came back and the hours of this just piled up. Part of me wishes that I could have been dramatic about all that…

My GP has told me about a disability health passport that you could use whenever you go into hospital and I had the form sent off but never thought I’d go in as soon as I did. If you have Aspergers or any other ASD, check out here for the form I used!

Have you had any experiences like this in hospital? What do you think they could change?